[Nash barges into Antonio's loft and sees Antonio and Jessica standing together]
Nash: Tess.  Thank God I found you.


Antonio: Get out.
Nash: Not without my Tess.  (to Jessica)  Look, I know you're freaking out.  I'm freaking out, too.  We'll work it out.
Jessica: Nash, I --
Nash: Look, I know what's going on.  I know you're going to have my baby.


Nash: (to Jessica)  Come on, let's go.
Jessica: No, no one is taking me anywhere.
Nash: (reconsidering)  All right, yeah, you're a strong woman.  You're right.  Want to play this out?  Let's play this out.


Jessica: I need a moment with Antonio.
Nash: Why?
Jessica: Please.
Nash: I don't like it.  I -- all right, fine.  I'll go out that door, but just two steps.  And if I hear so much as a whimper from you, I'll bust the damn thing down, all right?


[Nash comes back into the loft after Antonio and Jessica have finished talking]
Nash: You two got this all worked out?  That's great.  We'll get out of your hair now, Antonio.


Nash: Tess -- um -- I screwed up.  I'm sorry.  I told you I didn't want this kid, that I wasn't ready, but, I mean, it was just me being me, us being us.  You know, no strings, no complications. It was total crap.
Jessica: No, that's not it.
Nash: I didn't know that you were pregnant.  As soon as I did, I thought it was great.  Okay, I can't wait for us to bring up our child.  Look, I -- I should have told you that.  I'm sorry.  I let you down.


Jessica: Antonio, Tess went to the clinic.  But the thought of -- the reality of having a baby made me strong enough, and when I figured out what Tess was trying to do, I ran away.
Nash: Trying to do?  Tess, why are you referring to yourself in the third person?


Nash: You know, I think that the stress of this whole little threesome that we got going on here is starting to stress you out.  Can we please just leave?
Jessica: No.
Nash: Please?


[Antonio says that Jessica/Tess is "not well"]
Nash: "Not well."  She is the strongest, healthiest person I know.  All she needed was to get away from you.


[Antonio insists that Tess isn't the woman Nash thinks she is]
Nash: No, she's the woman I love for who she is and who she wants to be.  And now that I'm standing eye to eye with the reason she was running -- you know what, I'm going to keep on loving her.


[Jessica talks to Tess on the docks]
Jessica: They're onto us, you know -- Antonio, our mother, that guy.
Tess: She's not my mother, and Nash isn't just some random guy.  I love him.  He's the father of this baby.


[Antonio says that Jessica isn't "anyone's woman"]
Nash: Yeah, and neither is Tess.


Nash: When are you going to get it?  You're not calling the shots anymore.  Tess doesn't answer to you.
Antonio: No, but Jessica will.


Nash: (to Antonio)  Tess said she wants to spend the rest of her life with me.  And you got to understand, if the woman you love said that to you, you'd be fighting for her just like me.


[From Tess and Viki's confrontation]
Tess: I have been living my new life, my own life, one that I never imagined that I could ever have.  Where nobody was telling me what to do, nobody was telling me how to act.  I could do whatever I wanted.  I could be just me.  And let me tell you, I had a blast.  I was on my own, and that's how I liked it.  For a while.  Till Nash.  He gave me a home.  He did so much for me.  And if I stay here, I lose him.  And if I leave, I'm never coming back, ever.
Viki: Why?  Jessie, if you've fallen in love --
Tess: Jessica hasn't fallen in love!  I have!


Tess: (to Viki)  I went off on you and I gave you a heart attack.  I was glad.  I wanted you to die.  I was a bitch back then.  I didn't love anybody.  I didn't think anybody could love me.  Till I stole Nash's car.


Viki: I do love you.
Tess: No, you don't.  Nobody loves me, nobody but Nash.  And he loves me for who I am, not some psycho version of Jessica.


Viki: You know you can't keep on trying to live Jessica's life.
Tess: Yes, I do know that.  That's why I have my own life, with Nash.  And I'm not going to give it up.  Not now, not ever.


Tess: You know, if you want Jessica back, you might as well kill me now and get it over with, because that's what's going to happen.  I'll be dead anyway.
Viki: No, no, that's not true.
Tess: You know, you don't understand.  I have a life with love, I have happiness, and I'm not going to throw that all away for her.


[Nash finds Tess talking to Viki on the docks]
Nash: Tess!  I've been looking everywhere for you.  I'm taking you home.


[Viki tells Nash he doesn't know what he's dealing with]
Nash: "What I'm dealing with"?  When will you people stop telling me that?


[Viki wants to talk to Nash alone]
Tess: No, Nash, let's go.  Don't listen to her.
Nash: All right, just calm down, just calm down.  Listen to me.  There is nothing that she can say that'll change the way I feel about you, nothing.  All right?  So I'm going to talk to her for a minute.  You just wait over here for a minute, okay?  Don't worry.  Don't go disappearing on me again, okay?


[Viki tells Nash that he doesn't really know Jessica]
Nash: I may not know your Jessica, but with all due respect, ma'am, you don't know Tess.  She wants a chance at a fresh start at life, and she's given me that same chance.  I know what's important to her, and I know enough about her.  She's having my baby, and I promise you, I'm going to take care of them both.  Look, we have a future together.  We're happy.  That's something she doesn't share with that -- that Antonio.


[Nash and Tess are at a private airport in Llanview preparing to leave town -- Tess is giddy but Nash is sullen after his confrontation with Viki]
Tess: Ha-ha.  I totally scored.  I got these little beauties for our trip back to Napa.  Ah, although, you might be out of luck because I might have to drink both of them to work up the courage to get on that little toy plane over there.
Nash: Yeah, hey, well, I'm not a big fan of small planes, either, but you wouldn't fly commercial, so --
Tess: We're all about adventure, right?


Tess: Ah, Napa.  The smell of the vineyard, the sun rising to new life and possibilities.  You taught me that.
Nash: Jessica --
Tess: Why did you just call me that?
Nash: It's your real name, isn't it?  I needed to get your attention.
Tess: Well, you got it.  What do you want?
Nash: I want you to stop running.


Tess: So my psycho ex-boyfriend and that control freak Viki tried to drag me back to my old life.  My hero came to save me.
Nash: I can't do this anymore.  I've never pressed you for answers before.  But there's a kid now.
Tess: So what's the problem?
Nash: What's the problem?  The problem is that I've spent the last few months chasing you from one end of the country to the other, and you still can't even be honest with me.
Tess: You knew the situation.  You knew I had secrets.  I have never told you the same story twice.  We had a deal.  Why do you keep wanting to renegotiate?
Nash: I love you.  But I have put up with a lot of crap to be near you.


Tess: You get me pregnant and then you order me around?  Well, I'll tell you what -- I'll get on that plane and I'll start my new life on my own.
Nash: If that's what you want.
Tess: Why are you doing this to us?
Nash: Because I love you.  Because I want a life with you.  And because every time you lie, you ruin whatever chance we've got.


Tess: I told you I was trouble.  I told you that I would ruin your life, that I would make you miserable.
Nash: And I told you that I want this kid.  I want a life with you, a family.
Tess: I can't have this baby.  I go to bed every night and I am scared.  I wake up in the morning and I'm scared to death that I'm going to realize that I'm living somebody else's life.
Nash: Is that why you didn't tell me that this might not be my baby?  Is that why you didn't tell me?  Why didn't you tell me that you were with Antonio when you came back to New York?
Tess: Who told you that?
Nash: Of all people, he did.
Tess: And you believed him?  He's manipulative.  You can't believe a word that comes out of that jerk's mouth. He kidnapped me!
Nash: Right.
Tess: You don't believe me.
Nash: I believe that the day I met you, my life changed.  I believe that you are the most amazing, infuriating woman I've ever met, but you -- all right, now you are scaring me, Tess.
Tess: Please, no.  Please, please, please, please don't be scared of me.


Nash: I met your mother.
Tess: She's -- she plays with people's heads.
Nash: She loves you.  She loves you the way a parent is supposed to love a kid.  She loves you the way I want to love our kid, if it is my kid.


[Tess and Nash start to argue about Viki]
Tess: God, you don't know her!  She's Victoria Davidson.  She's the empress of Llanview.  She's a bona fide nut job!
Nash: There it is!
Tess: She's nuts!
Nash: See, it all comes back to the same thing.  She's sick, she's imbalanced, she's mentally ill, she's nuts.  It's all the same thing, and I got to know what that means!
Tess: Why are you grilling me about this?
Nash: Because I love you!  Because -- no, because when I walked into Antonio's apartment, you looked at me like I was a complete stranger!


Nash: I don't know what to think anymore.  I think I wanted you to be real so badly that --
Tess: (crying)  I am real!
Nash: Well, you better be.  Because our kid needs you to be real.  I -- our family needs you to be real.
Tess: "Our family"?  Is that how you really -- is that how you really think about it?
Nash: Of course I do.  Or did our time together mean nothing to you?  Tess, we love each other so much that it had to make a life of its own.  That's real.  Our baby is real.  Are you going to flush all that away because you're too scared to be honest with me?
Tess: I love you.  Isn't that honest enough?
Nash: No.  No, it's not.


[Tess finally starts to come clean to Nash...]
Tess: You have no idea what it was like to grow up here.
Nash: So help me to understand.
Tess: Perfect house, perfect family, perfect life.
Nash: Sounds pretty perfect.  Doesn't sound so bad to me.
Tess: Well, you didn't have to live it.  Yeah.  You know, it was a perfect world, but if you didn't -- if you couldn't measure up, you didn't exist.  You were invisible.  Except you were alive, but in a hole that you couldn't get out of.
Nash: A lot of kids felt that way.
Tess: Well, not --
Tess: You know, you do what you have to do to survive, to stay in control.  And then, to your surprise, one day perfect little Jessica Buchanan is in that hole, curled up.  She's begging for help.  She's screaming because she can't deal.  She's all alone.  There is no one to take care of her perfect little self, and she prays for strength and she imagines this helping hand that reaches into the darkness, a hand that's like hers, but only stronger.  She creates someone that can fight the battles that she can't win.  And that's how perfect Jessica created not-so-perfect me.


Nash: (about Jessica)  She created you?
Tess: You heard me.  You know what it means.  You just don't want to admit it.
Nash: You're not Jessica.  You -- you split into another personality?
Tess: Well, give the man a prize!  Call it multiple personality, call it D.I.D., call it just plain crazy!  That's all me.  Jessica's the landlord.  I just have squatting rights.  You fell in love with a ghost, pal. I'm not even real.  That's the truth.  Are you happy now?


Nash: Split personality?  So you're really two people?
Tess: Yeah, and baby makes three.  I have two personalities, though, that we know of so far.  Got two for the price of one, honey.  Blue-plate special girlfriends.
Nash: This only happens in the movies.


Tess: You fell in love with a basket case.
Nash: Don't talk like that.
Tess: Well, it doesn't matter how I talk, Nash, okay?  The fact of the matter is you got the short end of the stick.  You got taken for a ride.
Nash: Did you know?  Did you lie to me, or did you not know?
Tess: What difference does it make, okay?  You fell in love with somebody who doesn't exist.
Nash: So you're really Jessica?
Tess: Yep.  And Tess, you know, she has to go because she causes way too much trouble.
Nash: No, I told you not to talk like that.
Tess: Well, it doesn't matter how I talk, okay, because I hate talk.  Let's not talk at all.  You know, we're in the perfect place.  We're at an airport.  Why don't you go one way and I'll go the other and it'll be over?
Nash: No, this is not over.


Tess: You don't have to do this, Nash.  You don't have to do the right thing here.
Nash: I'm not going to let you just walk out of my life.
Tess: You don't want me, okay?  Why don't we just skip the scene?
Nash: I never said I don't want you.
Tess: Oh, yeah, because what you want most out of life is a crazy pregnant lady.
Nash: I never said anything like that.  You keep putting words in my mouth.  You want to think I want to walk out on you.
Tess: Why would I want that?
Nash: Because this is complicated, and you're not a big fan of complications, so you want to just hit the eject button and walk off.
Tess: So what?
Nash: So you're pregnant with our baby, but it works out better for you just to think of me as another one of your one-night stands.
Tess: Stop it.  You know that you were much more than that.
Nash: So why are you so set in bailing out on me?  Is it Jessica?  Does she want you to go?
Tess: I don't know.
Nash: Well, then I guess we got something else in common.
Tess: What?
Nash: Well, neither one of us knows what's going on, so let's try to figure it out together.


[Antonio tracked Tess and Nash to the airport; the cops are arrived, they've restrained Nash, and Antonio is trying to coax Jessica out; Tess hears Jessica's voice in her head]
Jessica's voice: You wanted a life, Tess?  This is it.  This is the life you made for yourself.  Look at what you've done to Nash.  He knows now.  Mom knows.  You can't run anymore.  And the baby?  You want to be pregnant all alone?  It doesn't have to be this way.
Tess: Yes, it does.


[Jessica continues speaking in Tess's head]
Jessica's voice: It's all falling apart, but we can help each other.
Tess: No.
Jessica's voice: You can't do this alone.  You're not that strong.
Tess: Want to bet?


[Tess has stolen a gun from one of the cops -- she addresses the policemen that are holding Nash]
Tess: Okay, here's the deal.  You let go of Nash or I shoot Antonio.


[Antonio is trying to distract Tess (who is still holding the gun on him) by talking about Jessica]
Tess: Nash, make him stop talking.
Nash: Tess, I love you, Tess.
Tess: You hear that?  He loves me.
Nash: Right, but he's right.  You can't do this.  All right, Tess -- Tess is loud and doesn't take any crap off of anyone, right?
Tess: That's right.
Nash: Right, right, but the reason I love her, the thing that she doesn't want anybody else to know is she's a good person.  She wouldn't hurt anybody.
Tess: No.
Nash: No.  No, everybody thinks that Jessica's so good, right?  But so is Tess.  I know that more than anyone.  Think about our baby.  You got to do the right thing.
Tess: I am good.  (she cries and drops the gun)


Antonio: You know, if you were thinking at all, she wouldn't be tied to a hospital bed right now.
Nash: If you hadn't come along, she'd be enjoying her life, not tied to a hospital bed having drugs stuffed down her throat so that you and her family can hold on to something that she obviously doesn't want!
Antonio: She is mentally ill.  I can't believe that you would even think about taking someone who is so obviously sick away from her family, her doctors, her support system!
Nash: Her support system?  That's some support system. "Hey, Tess, be exactly what we tell you to be.  Fit into some perfect little cookie cutter of what the girlfriend/daughter ought to be and don't even try to rock the boat!"
Antonio: Oh, jeez, we're trying to help her!
Nash: Help?  How did keeping me in the dark help anybody? You had all that information back at the loft, but you didn't deem me worthy to know that, did you?  Same way you don't deem Tess to be a human!
Antonio: Because she's not, Jess is!
Nash: She is.  She's real. She's very real.  She's the most real person I know.  She's real enough to fall in love.  She's real enough to have a baby.  She was real enough to want to get away from you so badly that she climbed out of your window.


Kevin: Who the hell are you and what do you know about Jessica?
Nash: I don't know Jessica.  I -- I know Tess.  And she just told me tonight that she, Tess, and Jessica are the same person.  There's a split personality.
Kevin: What?
Nash: I'm as surprised as you are.  Tess and I were starting a life together.  I swear to God I knew nothing about it until tonight.  Why?  Because this jerk here -- (gestures to Antonio)  -- chose not to tell me the truth.  Instead, he just stalked us all over California like some kind of a lunatic.


Dr. Jamison: What would make you not feel so angry anymore?
Tess: I want to see Nash.  I want to go back to our vineyard and I want our life back.


Nash: (to Antonio)  You know, if you knew anything about Tess, you'd know that nobody, not even me, could keep her away from anything she wants.


Tess: Nash!  Get me out of here, Nash!  Please, Nash!
Nash: You heard her calling me.  You can't keep me away from her!


Natalie: Who are you?  And, Mom, why does he keep acting like Jessica's his girlfriend?
Nash: Tess is my girlfriend, and none of you so-called family members seem to be listening to a word she's saying she wants.


Nash: You know, I may be in the minority, but you can all hear who Tess is calling for in there.
Natalie: Stop calling her that!
Nash: She can't stand any of you. She needs me in there. I should be in there.
Natalie: Whatever Jessica is going through, she has always been Jessica since the day she was born.
Nash: That may be true, but you have no clue who she is now, and that's your problem.


Clint: Viki and I know that you care about our daughter.
Nash: Sir, it's more than that.


Nash: I'm getting Tess out of there.
Antonio: You're not taking Jessica anywhere.
Nash: Tess! Her name is Tess.  I'm getting her out of there, and there's nothing that you or her family can do to stop me.
Antonio: You do that, I'll kill you.
Nash: You know, I got an idea.  Before you kill me, why don't we go ask Tess what she wants.


Clint: (to Viki)  I also know the two young men out there.  They're in love with our daughter, and they think that Jessie and Tess are individual women.  I can guarantee you they're going to fight for them.


Antonio: Her name is Jessica.
Nash: Jessica -- that's right. I know to you, she's Jessica.
Antonio: Oh, right, and now you admit she's real?
Nash: Oh, I know she's real.  I'm just not so sure that you know that Tess is real.


Clint: We were never properly introduced.  I'm Clint Buchanan, and Jessica, or Tess, as you know her, is my daughter.
Nash: I'm Nash Brennan, Mr. Buchanan. Tess and I are -- well, she's an amazing woman, sir.  Just tell me if there's anything I can do to help her be that again.


Nash: (to Clint)  It's difficult -- it's difficult for everyone, I know.  I'm feeling outnumbered here.  I got a feeling that if Tess is the one that wakes up in there, she's going to feel that way, too.


Clint: Whoever my daughter might be after she integrates, I have no idea.  Nobody does.
Nash: You're telling me I may lose her?


Nash: Mr. Buchanan, have you ever met Tess?
Clint: Besides tonight, no.
Nash: She's not usually like that, freaking out like she is.  She's incredible.  I mean, she's infuriating at the same time.  One minute she's making me laugh, the next minute she just makes me want to tear my hair out.  Sir, I'm in love with her.  I -- I don't know if I can just let her go.


Viki: We have Jessica back.
Nash: Yeah, but what about Tess?
Clint: Nash, you heard the doctor.  The goal here is to merge Jessica's two personalities into one.
Nash: I know that.  Is she even going to remember me?


Antonio: You've seen for yourself now.  She's got a family, friends, a home, people who want to take care of her.  So why don't you go back to California where you belong.
Nash: Because I belong with Tess.  I love her.  And she has a family here, too, especially if she's having my baby.  I'm not going anywhere, Antonio.


Jessica: And -- that guy, Tess' boyfriend, Nash, I -- is he here?
Clint: Yeah, darling, he is here.
Jessica: I just -- I think that I should see him.


Nash: I take it this means you know who I am.
Jessica: We've met a couple of times.
Nash: Yeah.
Jessica: I know that you care about Tess a lot.
Nash: I love her. I love you.
Jessica: I'm sorry.  You don't know who I am. I -- the woman that you were with -- she's not real.  She only existed because I was sick, and -- and once I get well, she'll be gone.
Nash: Everyone keeps telling me that.


Nash: (to Jessica)  You don't know Tess.  She's so alive.


Jessica: When you're around, I -- I get weaker, and -- please, I'm sorry, I'm begging you, just don't try to see me anymore.
Nash: I can't just leave.  What about our baby?
Jessica: This baby is Antonio's and mine.
Nash: No, you don't know that.  You and I -- okay.  Tess and I were lovers.
Jessica: Look, I told you, I don't even know you.  And I'm sorry.  As for you and Tess, I -- I just think that it would be better if you pretended like you never met her.
Nash: I see Tess in you.  Oh man.  She knows I love her.  She loves me, too.  I don't want to get in the way of you getting better.  I'll go.
Jessica: Thank you.
Nash: But as for forgetting about you -- how could I forget about the best thing that ever happened to me?


[Nash finds a letter that Tess left him]
Tess' voice: "Nash, if you're reading this, then the worst has happened and I'm gone -- maybe for good.  I can't make it without you.  You gave me a reason to exist.  But please know that I will never stop trying to find my way back to you.  I love you.  Tess."


[Nash shows up on the frontstep of Llanfair]
Viki: Nash. I was under the assumption you were leaving this town.
Nash: I was.  But then I found this letter.  (he shows Viki the letter Tess left him)  Ma'am, I am not leaving until I speak with the woman who wrote that letter.


Viki: We want what is best for our daughter.
Nash: Your daughter, Jessica.  Because with all due respect, ma'am, you don't know Tess.  When Tess walks into a room, everyone turns to look at her.  That's the kind of woman she is, but she never lets anyone close enough to her to hurt her.  She just keeps moving, moving, all the time moving -- until she met me.  All right?  When someone like that lets you into her life...  (trailing off, then finishing)  She let me into her life.
Clint: I wish there was something that we could do to make this easier for you.  But Jessica and her treatment -- that comes first.
Nash: I understand that.  I do.  But I just can't help feeling that if Tess is going to be a part of Jessica, that just maybe the love that we shared will become a part of Jessica, as well.


Nash: (looking at a picture of Jessica at Llanfair)  I know that smile.  I used to love trying to come up with ways to make Tess smile like that.  How can at not be her smile?
Clint: It is hers, just as much as it is Jessica's.
Nash: Right, yeah -- everything you said at the hospital.  I know.  It's hard to get my head around, you know.  "Hey, the woman who's going to be the love of your life -- she's only kind of real."


Nash: Would you find it hard if the best part of the woman you love doesn't include you?  It's --
Clint: Yeah, I would. But it is a possibility, so we have to prepare for it.
Nash: Right. Thank you.
Clint: What for?
Nash: You have been honest with me.  You've helped me understand this.  I appreciate that.


Viki: How did you and Tess meet?
Nash: She stole my car.
Viki: She told me that.  Why did she steal your car?
Nash: She -- she invited me to buy her lunch at a fine restaurant in New York. I passed.  So she punished me for my lack of generosity.
Viki: By stealing your car.
Nash: Yeah.  She didn't -- didn't succeed, though. I stopped her, I took back my car, I took off. I thought I'd never see her again, but she -- she thumbed a ride and followed me to a party in the Hamptons.
Viki: She sounds reckless.
Nash: Reckless, yes.  Reckless, dangerous, obnoxious, fearless.  I remember thinking she was the most impressive woman I'd ever met.  She was just too good to be -- well, I should've listened to my gut on that one, shouldn't I?
Viki: You are as much a victim in all of this as Tess is.
Nash: I don't feel that way.  It's not like we talked about the future -- not much, anyway.  She -- she always was about the moment.  That's Tess.  I cherish every moment I spent with her.
Viki: Didn't she disappear at times?
Nash: We worked through that.  I accepted that she was with me when she wanted to be, and soon she wanted to be with me all the time.  As infuriating as she was, I -- I would give up all of my dreams to have just one more moment with her.


Viki: You know, after reading the letter that Tess left you, I realized that you are the only person who she feels is in her corner.  And you obviously have quite a connection.  I saw that at the docks.
Nash: Ma'am, you need me.  If Tess gets a chance, she'll follow me.  I think it's best that I stay right here.
Viki: Well, it's very generous of you to offer to stay and help, given what you have to lose.
Nash: From what I understand, what's best for Jessica is also what's best for Tess.  That's all I care about.  Besides, I think after all of this, I can -- I can handle just about anything.


[Nash is looking at pictures of Jessica and the other Buchanans]
Nash: Everyone looks so happy.
Clint: That's because this house is full of love.  It still is.
Nash: After everything we've been through, I -- we never took any pictures.
[Clint takes a picture of Jessica out of his wallet and hands it to Nash]
Clint: Nash, I want you to have this.  But before you take it, I'm going to tell you something.  I'm giving you this because it's obvious how much you love my daughter and how much you miss her.  But don't take this gesture as any more than that.
Nash: I understand.  Thank you.  Sir, um -- you have been nothing but honest and straightforward with me.  I'd like to be honest and straightforward with you.  I will never maliciously take your daughter away from you.  But I'm not giving up either.  Whatever happens to her, whoever she ends up being, I'm not going to just walk away from the woman I love and the child that may be mine.  I'm just not like that.  I'm sorry.
Clint: I understand, son.  Neither would I.


[Nash and Antonio have a run-in about the baby]
Antonio: Let's not get ahead of ourselves talking about Jessica's baby.
Nash: Or Tess'.
Antonio: What we need to do is make sure she gets well.
Nash: "Integrated."  The word is "integrated."  See, I just spent the last couple hours giving myself a little crash course on D.I.D. on the Internet.  Apparently, once a person is integrated, they have traits of both the host and the alters.  So once Jessica is well, she's going to be fully aware of Tess and everything that Tess did.  So she may well choose to be with me.


[Tess emerges during a hypnosis session with Dr. Jamison and is infuriated when she discovers they've locked her in the library to keep her away from Nash, who is in the foyer of Llanfair]
Tess: What am I, a prisoner or something?  Listen, I'm not a kid, okay?  I have my own life with somebody that loves me, and I want to see him now.  I want to see Nash.
Dr. Jamison: Let's finish talking first.
Tess: No.  No more talk.  I want to see Nash.  Nash?  Nash?
[Nash, out in the foyer, hears Tess calling for him]
Antonio: Don't say a word to her.
Nash: She's calling me.  She wants me.


Antonio: Look, she's not a whole person --
Nash: "A whole person."  Yeah, I know, I've heard it over and over and over again, but it's crap, all right?  "She's not whole.  She's not integrated.  We can't bring life to half a person.  We got to help her be a whole person."  But it's crap, all right?  None of this has anything to do with what's going on in the inside, what really matters here.
Antonio: Right, you're the one who figured that out, too -- "what really matters."  You're the only who's got a handle on it.
Nash: I love her.  All I know is I love the girl that's behind that door with all my heart and she loves me.  You heard her, didn't you?  You heard her.  She loves me.
[Back inside the library, Tess is pissed]
Tess: What the hell is going on?  You know what -- Nash!  Nash, please!


[Natalie tries to get into the library to see Tess/Jessica, but Nash stops her from interrupting the hypnosis session]
Nash: The girl I love is on the other side of that door, and if there's any chance of her walking out of there, I'm not letting you or anybody else getting in the way of that.


Nash: (to Antonio)  You know, I'm starting to understand why Jessica needed Tess to get away from you.  You don't listen.


Nash: There's no way of knowing who's going to walk out of there.
Antonio: It'll be Jessica.
Nash: Why?  Because Jessica's so tough?  You know, from what I've seen, Tess is the survivor.


Antonio: (to Jessica)  I love you.
Nash: (turning toward Jessica)  If Tess can hear this, tell her I'm still here, no matter what.


[Nash has to pay a fine for the incident at the airport]
Woman: Assault in an airport in times like these, and all you got was a fine?  You got off easy.
Nash: I got a lot more than a fine.


[Clint offers to pay Nash's fine, and Nash misinterprets his intention]
Nash: You can't buy me off, Mr. Buchanan.  I love Tess.  I'm not turning my back on her, not until I'm sure that there's no chance left for us and that it's her choice.  Keep your damn money, Mr. Buchanan.


[Nash and Clint talk about Jessica]
Nash: I'll give her space, I'll give her time, I'll give her anything she needs to get well, but you got to let me do what I came here to do.  I got to see her, Mr. Buchanan.
Clint: Didn't I just say that you got to give her some space?
Nash: I need to see her.  Just see her, all right?  Natalie said that she's sleeping.  I just want to see that she's okay.
Clint: All right.


Antonio: Seems to me like you're making yourself pretty comfortable here in Llanview.
Nash: Yeah, I got a room with a bath.  It has a TV, a phone, a microwave oven.  Anything else you'd like to know?
Antonio: How long are you planning on staying?
Nash: As long as it takes.
Antonio: For what?
Nash: For this Tess/Jessica thing to get straightened out.
Antonio: Oh, I see.  You're wasting your time.
Nash: You keep saying that.


Antonio: You know, I would leave, Brennan, because once this thing does get worked out, then Jess will go back to being herself.
Nash: You know, assuming that this integration thing even happens, Jessica will never be her old self.  Tess is going to be a part of her, and that Tess part will still be in love with me.  And there's nothing that you or anybody else can do about that, so there's no chance that I'm going to leave her, no matter who the father of her child is.


Antonio: Jess and I have been together now for years.
Nash: Till she ran away from you.


[Antonio talks about how Jessica got "sick" with the DID]
Nash: See, I don't see it that way, her getting sick.  I think she was repressing something.
Antonio: Of course not.  This is --
Nash: Something that she wasn't comfortable showing anybody, not even you, but she was comfortable showing me.  You know why?  Because I understand her.
Antonio: You do, huh?
Nash: Yeah, I do, and I accept her for what she is, not what I'd like her to be.  She's a free spirit, all right?  She's a beautiful, fun, gorgeous girl who loves with all of her heart but needs her freedom, too.  I mean, nobody is going to tell Tess how to lead her life, what to think, or who to fall in love with, not even me.  She's like me.
Antonio: What a bunch of crap.
Nash: We're very similar.  Oh, but our connection wasn't just mental.  It was physical -- the desire, the passion.
Antonio: Don't you ever shut up?
Nash: It just was so intense, day-in, day-out, more than either of us had ever experienced.  I'm telling you, I had never had that --
[Antonio punches Nash]


[Jessica asks Nash questions about what Tess told him about her]
Jessica: She said I was dead?  She hates me that much?
Nash: Well, I mean, the more we talked about the two of you, the more I understood how complicated the relationship was.
Jessica: Complicated?
Nash: Complicated.
Jessica: Complicated?  She said I was dead and she's inside me.  Complicated?
Nash: Tess?
Jessica: Why did you just say that?
Nash: I'm sorry.  The way you said that, I just thought I saw her.


Nash: It is really hard for me to look at you and not see Tess.  You got to know it has taken everything I've got not to just grab ahold of you and hug you and kiss you and touch the small of your back where you got that little scar shaped like a lightning bolt.  (pause)   I'm making you uncomfortable, aren't I?
Jessica: A little bit, yeah.


Nash: Tess, she likes to run free.
Jessica: Yeah, free to get drunk and sleep with tons of guys.
Nash: Kind of, yeah.  Yeah, I mean, at least at the start, you know.  But -- just the first.  You know, no strings, no -- no past, no future.  Just the moment.  We had a lot of fun together.  She's so audacious and she's unapologetic, unself-conscious.  Like this one time, she decided she had to get a job, so, you know, she's got to throw together her resume and she's been sitting in my apartment for over an hour looking at this blank piece of paper, kind of whimpering to herself in frustration, so she started throwing stuff down on it.  I swear, by the end of it, she could've landed herself a top job at the Pentagon.
[Nash touches Jessica and she moves away from him]
Nash: Sorry.
Jessica: Yeah.
Nash: (continuing his story)  Then she just might have a future writing sci-fi.
Jessica: Well, she sounds like tons of fun.
Nash: Nothing embarrasses her.  She's -- she's fun, she's mischievous.  I've always had big dreams -- a wife and a family of my own if I found the right woman.  Tess was that person.  That kid -- it wasn't planned.  It threw both of us for a loop, but I never doubted it was exactly what I wanted.  Tess, too.
Jessica: Tess wanted to settle down?
Nash: We had the same dream.  I'm not going to lie to you, Jessica, I'm not going to let go of that.  And I'm sure that somewhere inside of you, Tess isn't going to let go of that, either.


Jessica: Nash, could you just promise me something?
Nash: Depends what.
Jessica: During Tess' and my integration, if she comes out and comes running into your arms, do you promise not to let her run off with you?
Nash: Jessica, I want you to get better.  I do.  But, hey, I mean, if you and Tess are integrated, maybe -- maybe you'll be running off with me, too.


Nash: (to Jessica, Antonio and Kevin)  I should probably make one thing clear before I go.  The baby -- if it's mine, it's mine and Tess', and I will never, ever give up our baby.


Layla: I don't get why you want to torture yourself by watching the woman you love dance with another man.
Nash: I just -- I keep telling myself it's a matter of timing.


Nash: (to Layla)  You mean well.  You're trying to help.  And maybe I am making a fool out of myself, huh?  Wanting somebody who won't even look at me.  But I'm willing to take the risk.  I'm willing to risk everything.


[A tipsy Nash approaches Jessica outside Capricorn]
Nash: Tess?
Jessica: I'm not Tess.  I'm Jessica.
Nash: I'm sorry.  I just thought that -- wow.  You're not Tess.  Tess would never look at me with fear in her eyes.  She knows I'd protect her with my life.


Jessica: Listen, I'm sorry about the way that Antonio treated you inside.  I know that you were just trying to be thoughtful.  But for the record, I don't like lime in my soda.
Nash: Wow.  Tess does.
Jessica: Yeah, that's so weird.
Nash: Yeah.  She's also a more confident dancer.  I'm telling you, we should go hit the dance floor.  You got to see how she moves, how you can move --
Jessica: You're confusing me for her.
Nash: Yeah, I guess I am.  Hey, maybe this will clear up any confusion, though.
[Nash grabs Jessica and kisses her]


[Nash pulls away from kissing Jessica and realizes that Tess has emerged]
Tess: What the hell took you so long?
Nash: Tess.  Oh, my God, Tess.


Tess: Do you have any idea how hard it is being locked up inside Jessica and knowing that you are out here and not being able to get to you?
Nash: You could -- you could see me?
Tess: No, I could -- I could feel you.  I knew that you wouldn't leave me.  I knew you wouldn't abandon me to the Buchanan machine, right?
Nash: What, you crazy?  Money, mansions, trust funds? Nah.
Tess: I know.  Talk about boring.  I'd take our little cottage in Napa over that any day, bugs and all.
Nash: No bugs.  We killed the bugs, remember?


Tess: I don't know about you, but I could really use a nice glass of cab right now.
Nash: A little soon for the kid to start drinking -- I mean, a nice cab and all.
Tess: Okay, well, fine.  I'm not going to be pregnant forever.  And when I finally pop this kid out, I want to toast with a glass of wine from Brennan's Winery.
Nash: Esprit Libre.
Tess: What?
Nash: Yeah, yeah, I changed the name of our label.  I didn't have a chance to tell you, but it's Esprit Libre.  It's French for "free spirit," for you.
Tess: Free spirit.  I like that.
Nash: Ah.
Tess: Yeah.   It's good.  It's very -- it's very us.


[Nash refuses to leave town with Tess]
Tess: You want to bail on me, fine.  Great.  Get out of my life!  Or, should I say, half a life.
Nash: I'm not giving up on you.  I'd never do that.


Tess: Why can't we just be us?  Remember, like before?
Nash: Because it's not just us anymore.
Tess: I don't care about her family.
Nash: I'm talking about our family.  We owe it to our kid, to our boy or girl -- boy.  We got to stay here.  We got to play this out.


Nash: Jessica loves Antonio, Tess.
Tess: Can we not talk about them, please?
Nash: I can't stand it, either, but it's a fact. We got to deal with it.


Tess: We don't even have to go back to Napa, Nash.  We can find a vineyard somewhere else.  We can go to France.
Nash: He'll find us there the same way he found us in the last place, the same way he found us in New York.  Antonio is not giving up on Jessica any more than I'm giving up on you.
Tess: I will not be Antonio's little lap dog.  He would stick a G.P.S. chip in Jessica's butt if that meant that he could keep tabs on her.  I am looking for a real man.  Are you up for the job or not?
Nash: You want to spend the rest of your life running?
Tess: What if Jessica and Antonio win?   I can't go back.  I can't.
Nash: Trust me.  Trust us.  Nothing can keep us away from each other again.


Nash: We're not running, Tess.  We got to stay here and fight.
Tess: Do you really think that we can win?
Nash: We got to try.


Tess: I know this place, it's outside of town, it's off of highway 12.  I guess we can go there and figure things out.  We have to.  You're all I have.
Nash: You'll always have me.


Nash: Tess, stress is bad for the baby.  Just let me --
Tess: "Baby, baby, baby."  Is that what I'm going to hear for the next six months, Nash?  What am I, your human incubator now?
Nash: That's not what I think, and you know it.


Tess: I want a double vodka soda so bad right now, I could scream.  But I can't because I'm having a baby -- which might not even be mine.  So I am stuck spending what little of my life I have doing something for Jessica.  Jessica and Antonio.  And it makes me so mad, I could break something.
Nash: This is going to upset you, but I think somebody might be hormonal.
Tess: Are you kidding me?  What the hell are you talking about?  What, is that some throwback to the 1950s or something?  "Don't bother the little woman, she's in a delicate condition"?
Nash: It's funny but true.


Tess: Everything's wrong.  It was perfect and now it's wrong.
Nash: Not everything's wrong.  Hey, I'm here.
Tess: Lucky I don't smack you.
Nash: You can stab me with a fork, but I'm not leaving.


Tess: What's with your rosy outlook all of a sudden?
Nash: Everything sucks.  All right?  You're not the one who's accustomed to her independence.  I'm tired, I'm confused, I'm completely out of my element, and I really want to go home.  But every time I look at you, every time I think about us, I think about our baby.  It's clear to me, all right?  I am exactly where I should be.  I have no doubts.


Tess: What if Antonio doesn't let us be together?  What if this is his baby?
Nash: It's useless to think about that.  We can't change it.
Tess: But we can start over.  We can make one that we know is ours.
Nash: We never talk about that, what you almost did.
Tess: I went to the clinic --
Nash: Yeah.
Tess: And I tried to end the pregnancy.
Nash: I know.
Tess: Should I have told you?
Nash: Yeah, you should've told me.  But it's not the point.  I thought you would've wanted to have our baby no matter what.
Tess: Well, does "no matter what" include having a split personality, Nash?


Tess: This baby is a colossal mistake.
Nash: Nothing about us is a mistake.
Tess: Except for you falling in love with somebody who doesn't exist.
Nash: You exist.  You're sitting right in front of me.  I can touch you.  I love you.


Nash: I know things look bad right now, but --
Tess: You mean terminal, Nash.
Nash: Don't say that.  You are everything to me.  You're why I live.  I'm not giving up on you or our family.
Tess: When you say it like that, it almost sounds okay.
Nash: You need a family, too, Tess.   It's part of why we found each other.


Tess: Have you fallen for many mental patients?
Nash: You are my first.
[Tess smacks him]
Nash: Ow!
Tess: You're not supposed to agree with me, smart-ass.


Nash: I can't even guess what your life was like before you met me, but --
Tess: What life?  Besides, I thought we weren't going to talk about the past.
Nash: You're right.  But I need you to know where I'm coming from, minus the sordid details.
Tess: Well, don't leave out any of the good parts.
Nash: There were no good parts, trust me.  I didn't have much of a home life growing up.  I did for a while.  Something happened.  But I was alone for most of it.  Like you.
Tess: You're not alone when you're two people.
Nash: You're lonely.  I was.  But now you're carrying our baby, and that is huge to me, Tess.  Tess?  The thought that you were willing to give up on us by going into that clinic -- it pisses me off.


Tess: (about Jessica)  She really wants to have this kid.
Nash: But you don't.
Tess: When I look at you, I think that I can do it, but I -- it's freaking me out, okay?  What if this baby makes Jessica so strong that she could get rid of me forever?  And I don't know how to get rid of Jessica.


[Tess holds her stomach in surprise]
Nash: What is it?
Tess: I -- I think I felt the baby.
[Tess starts to cry]
Tess: Oh, God, I'm sorry.  I guess I really am hormonal.
Nash: It's all right.  You felt the baby kick?
Tess: I don't know.  When I felt it was moving, I don't think it was a kick.  Is -- is it supposed to be moving this early?
Nash: I -- why are you crying?
Tess: What am I going to do with it?
Nash: I --
Tess: I finally started to get a life that was 100% me.  I could do what I wanted, I could be who I wanted to be.  We moved to California.  And that was the happiest I've ever been.  Now look at me!  I'm stuck in Llanview!  God.  Everybody knows the truth.  Then I'm going to have a kid.  I had my own life for, what, three weeks?  That's not enough, and it's over.  And now it's me, Jessica, and a baby.  God.  And whether or not I get integrated or Jessica and I go back and forth forever, it's never going to be just Tess.  I'm always going to have a half a life.  Even if we have the baby, especially if we have this baby.  I'm never going to get to be just Tess.


Tess: No, no, all this relationship talk is giving me a headache.  I just -- I need a cigarette, I need a drink.   I need one of my crutches.   All my crutches are gone.
Nash: I'm not.
Tess: Yeah, why is that?  Oh, I forgot -- the baby.
Nash: Oh, enough of your self-pity crap, all right?  I'm not here because of the baby.  I told you that.  I love you.  And I know that you love me, and you'll learn to love our baby.


[Tess wants to leave the bar but Nash won't let her go by herself]
Tess: No!  I want to go alone.
Nash: Look, you can't walk out now.  You fought your way out so that we could be together.


Tess: I don't know what I'd do without you.
Nash: As long as I got any say in it, you'll never have to.  I love you.


[Tess wakes up on a park bench with Nash]
Nash: Morning, sleepyhead.
Tess: Nash.
Nash: Missed the sunrise.
Tess: Sorry.
Nash: It's all right.  There will be plenty more for you and me.  And our baby.


Nash: Tess, we cannot spend night after night in bars, sleeping on park benches.  It's cold.  We need a game plan.
Tess: Well, I'm not really good at game plans, if you haven't noticed.
Nash: No, I hadn't noticed that.  I've see you when there's something you want.  Nothing gets in your way.


Tess: You know what I want?  I want every sunrise with you, and every night for us to look up over the stars over our vineyard, and I want the Buchanan’s at least 3,000 miles away.  But those days are over, right?  Or did we ever really have them?  I mean, we were just borrowing time.
Nash: No, that's not true you and know it.  Besides, since when did you give up so easily, huh?


Tess: Things are different now.  I can't promise you --
Nash: I never asked you to promise me anything, all right?   I don't want you to, I didn't expect you to -- not then, not now.  All I want is to be with you, to love you one day at a time.  That's all I want.
Tess: You've got a gift.
Nash: Oh, yeah?
Tess: Yeah.  You always know the right thing to say.
Nash: Only with you.


Tess: I'm scared.
Nash: Me, too.  But right now, in this moment, everything is okay.
Tess: Yeah, I know.  Why can't it just always be just us?  Other people just get in the way.  I hate other people.  They ruin everything.


Tess: I think Antonio's part bloodhound.
Nash: I think he is almost as stubborn as you.
Tess: Almost.
Nash: Almost.


[Nash tries to convince Tess to stay put in Llanview]
Nash: Just think of it this way -- if you don't, you'll have to spend the rest of your life running forever.  Then they'll still be controlling your life.
Tess: No, they won't.  Not if we just keep on going.  They won't be able to find us.  Where's your sense of adventure?  We would go everywhere.  We'd see the world.  We'd be fugitives until our dentures and arthritis were so bad that we were undesirable.  And then when that happened, we'd settle down and we'd write a book about it, and we'd make buckets of money and they wouldn't be able to touch us. Just don't tell me about how much I mean to them, because they don't mean anything to me.  They could go to hell for all I care!


Nash: (to Tess)  You are always the toughest when you're the most confused.


Tess: I know you're just trying to help, but -- everything was just starting to feel so good, you know?  Last night when we were together, and this morning when we woke up on the bench, I looked at you and I thought that we were back in California.  And I just -- I want to feel that way again.  So can we just -- please, just put everything else on hold?  (she pauses, then looks at him with a little pout on her face)  I want bacon.
Nash: Sure.
Tess: Where are we going to go?
Nash: (smiling at her)  Well, the best bacon is Canadian.


[Nash and Tess head to the bar where she left her purse]
Tess: Yikes.  This place sure does look different in the daylight.
Nash: Yeah.
Tess: Why don't you wait here.  I'll go ahead and --
Nash: No, no, I'll come.
Tess: (amused)  I can't believe that I left my purse here.  I'm not even drinking anymore.

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